Dispersing the Darkness

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Today, I feel kind of down. Not sure what it is exactly, but I know that it feels like the gloom will never go away.

But, what it feels like and what the truth is are two different things. I know that the darkness I feel is only due to an error in my thinking. God promised us light and in that light, darkness is pushed away. I have to seek out the light and it will come.

I know the darkness does not have to be permanent. Scripture says, “God is light, pure light, there’s not a trace of darkness in Him” (1 John 1:5, from The Message). If there is not darkness in Him, there should be no darkness or down feelings in me because He is in my life. He pushes away darkness – if I let Him. If I choose to dwell in the down feelings, the gloom, then the darkness will persist.

I don’t always know how to dispel the darkness. Prayer helps sometimes. More often just getting busy helps me push them aside. Sometimes talking to another person helps. When all else fails, a good cry is often in order. However, I don’t cry often, maybe not often enough. I’m often afraid that the gloomy feelings will last forever so I don’t want to do anything that might make that seem true. Crying is one of those things that make me feel like the gloom will never lift.

Today, the down feelings are persisting and I’ve already tried praying . . . worked for the few moments I could concentrate. Crying doesn’t seem like the right thing right now . . . there’s nothing specific to cry about. I could call someone on the phone . . . but they will want to know what’s wrong and I can’t think of anything. So, I’m left without an idea about what to do . . . except to get busy doing something which is why I’m writing this blog article. Although writing this article hasn’t necessarily helped reduce the down feelings, it has kept me busy for a few moments. That has lessened the intensity of the feelings.

I know some would say it’s okay to just let myself feel down. I know that it’s okay. I just don’t like it, especially when I can’t figure out why I’m feeling down in the first place. I want to have a reason. I want to be able to pinpoint it and say, “Ah, so I’m afraid of something,” or “Oh, maybe I’m not feeling physically well.” But, I don’t think that is the case today. Today I just feel down.

Maybe a nap will help . . .

A Living Hope

We can be born again to a living hope because Jesus was raised from the dead. 1 Peter 1:3 says,

“Blessed be the God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ, who according to His great mercy has caused us to be born again to a living hope through the resurrection of Jesus Christ from the dead,”

When I think about hope, I don’t always think of it in terms of the source of that hope. In this case it’s not based on just any past event being a predictor of a future event. It’s based on the resurrection of Jesus. I know it’s not quite Easter but in my Bible Study, on the Feast of First Fruits, I came across this idea: That we are guaranteed a resurrection because Christ was resurrected first. The Bible says in several places that Jesus was the first fruits of the resurrection. If He was first then there are more to follow. We can count on our own resurrection and an eternity in heaven because Jesus was the first to be resurrected. That gives me a source for hope that cannot be compared to anything else.

Of course, it’s not a guaranteed resurrection if one does not know God through Jesus Christ. But, I am confident in my position in Christ and know that I have asked Him into my life to be my Guide, Ruler, and King. So, being assured that I’m in Christ, I am assured that I can be born again to a living hope because Jesus was raised from the dead. I don’t know about you, but that gives me a security I’ve only kind of had before.

I really like the idea that if Jesus was the first to resurrect, then there will be more. Who ever said that someone was first in a race with only one runner? That just doesn’t make any sense. In order for there to be a first place finisher there had to have been other runners. We are the other runners in the race of eternity. Jesus was the first place finisher but He was only paving the way for the rest of us. That gives me a sense of confidence in the resurrection and in my own resurrection. Someday it will happen.

So, because Jesus was raised from the dead and lives, we can confidently know the possibility of resurrection exists for us. That living hope gives me a sense of peace that I have not necessarily had before. This world is not all that there is.