The Bible tells me, repeatedly, that God is our refuge. That
is the theme of Bible study this week, and it is appropriate for me as I am
struggling with feeling hopeless, helpless, afraid, and anxious because things
in my life are not going the way I want them to. Those are troublesome feelings
and possible indicators of an approaching depressive episode. There are just
things going on right now for which I have no control leading me to frustration
and anxiety.
However, if I turn to God (or if I don’t), the Lord Almighty
is my refuge and protector. He’s an ever-present help in times of trouble
whether I acknowledge and give praise, or wallow in self-pity. Psalm 46
explains that help, and I especially like verses 1-3:
God
is our refuge and strength,
A
very present help in trouble.
Therefore
we will not fear, though the earth should change,
And
though the mountains slip into the heart of the sea;
Though
its waters roar and foam,
Though the mountains
quake at its swelling pride.
Nothing like the catastrophes described above are happening
in my area of the world, but the emotional world inside (and in my environment)
are in turmoil. It’s a different kind of trouble, but it is still trouble that
is infecting my thoughts and feelings. And God will help. As a matter of fact,
He is already helping!
I do have some responsibilities if I want to see, recognize,
and acknowledge God as my refuge. Foremost, I need to be looking for God at
work. I also need to cry out to Him and reinforce verbally the truths of
Scripture. I also need to be willing and able to tell others of the refuge He
is providing for me. I can’t do those things if I stay focused on me, and my
problems.
The passage I chose to memorize for the topic, “God is My
Refuge,” is Psalm 91:1-2, because it clearly says God is my refuge (and
fortress), but also reminds me to be calling out to Him and acknowledging that
fact.
He
who dwells in the shelter of the Most High
Will
abide in the shadow of the Almighty.
I
will say to the Lord, “My refuge and my fortress,
My God, in whom I
trust!”
A long time ago I memorized Psalm 91:11 and it brought me
encouragement.
For
He will give His angels charge concerning you,
To guard you in
all your ways.
However, in adding verses 1-2 to the picture, I now know why
He will give His angels charge concerning me: because He is my refuge and
fortress and His angels are His soldiers manning the castle I’m unassailably
ensconced within.
Today, I will take notice of God’s protection around my
thoughts and my feelings and praise Him for the help is has given, is giving,
and will give me as I journey through life on this earth. Doing that should
keep depressive thoughts and behaviors at bay and even give me glimpses of hope
in the midst of this very present trouble.